The road less traveled…

My partner and I were attempting to become pregnant. For many reasons – including my sanity – we have put that on the back burner for now and are just working on walking down the road less traveled. We've been through Katrina – moved to Colorado – and our next adventure is headed to California.

Holidays November 24, 2010

Filed under: Family — 2Lesbians&Baby @ 12:12 pm
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I used to love the holidays.  Thanksgiving through the end of the year was my absolute favorite time of the year.  I couldn’t wait to spend these days with my huge family, all in one place, all enjoying each others company.  Great food.  Great conversation.  Laughs.

Now, this time of year is just not the same.  My grandfather passed away in October of 2004 of a lung disease caused by working for years and years in heavy sawdust environments.  He was the glue that held my family together and the only real father figure I ever had.  He was the rock that everyone could count on.  When he passed away, it’s like our whole family began to crumble.  I’ve gone into issues that I have with my family in the past and I can say with almost 100% certainty that NONE OF IT would be going on if he was still around.  He simply wouldn’t have stood for it.

I enjoy the time off and I completely love being able to hand around the house in my PJs with my lovely wife, but I can’t help but think back to when I would sit in the La-Z-Boy with my grandpa and listen to him tell stories of how he grew up and the travels/adventures that he experienced.  I can’t help but think of the time spent at their house helping my grandmother to put up all of her handmade ornaments and decorations.  I can’t help but think of sitting on the living room floor watching my grandpa play the harmonica and my uncles play the guitar and sing old country, bluegrass, and gospel songs.  Back when life was so much simpler and I had everything I could ever want.  Back when I thought that he would be here forever…

That being said – I love you PawPaw.  I hold you in my heart all the time.  I miss your bright smile and your gentle ways and I’m sad that my future child will not have the privilege of knowing you.  Some day we’ll have a jam session together again.  Can’t wait to hear you play in that heavenly choir!

 

 
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