The road less traveled…

My partner and I were attempting to become pregnant. For many reasons – including my sanity – we have put that on the back burner for now and are just working on walking down the road less traveled. We've been through Katrina – moved to Colorado – and our next adventure is headed to California.

Lori is home :) March 1, 2011

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I picked her up yesterday after work and we went to have sushi for her celebration of freedom dinner. 🙂

She seems well and we talked a lot about how we need to communicate better in order to prevent this from happening again (which is a huge fear of mine). She promises to tell me when she’s getting to that point and I promise to listen.

She also reassured me that she wants nothing more than to continue TTC with me. 🙂 Honestly at the last post I wasn’t sure that was going to continue to be a possibility.

So the plan is, get a therapist for her so she can relieve these anxieties and get a therapist for US so we can learn how to cope as a couple with her health issues in a better way.

Nonetheless, it was nice sleeping next to her again last night.

 

Sorry for my lack of posting.. February 26, 2011

Filed under: Doctor,Family,Pain — 2Lesbians&Baby @ 10:48 am
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First I want to thank all of you who commented on my last couple of posts.  It’s very healing to read that there are other people who really care about how you are doing.  Especially in this situation because not many of our real life friends even know what’s going on with Lori so, while I do have my besties (you know who are are) it’s nice to be able to vent here as well.

Secondly, I want to apologize for my lack of comments on your blogs lately.  I finally got caught up reading them all, but I have yet to sit down and congratulate or commiserate with anyone.  I’m so far behind that you should consider this a blanket I’m sorry or Congratulations where it is due!  Trust me, I’m reading and I feel real joy or sorrow when I read your postings.

We’re still pretty much in the same place we were in the last time I posted.  The doc did say that if all goes well we’ll have a family session on Monday and she may be able to come home then.  Right now I’m just trying to keep myself busy around the house (it’s amazing how quickly it becomes a mess just by not doing your nightly pick up) so that I can keep my own sanity.

Anyway, back to the spot bot and my new vacuum – Thanks Ladies – you really mean so much

 

8 DPI… February 3, 2011

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…and getting more anxious to test by the minute.

The plan is to wait until NEXT Friday to do the test (2-11-11), but I doubt that I’m going to make it that far.  I should be able to test with an early HPT by even Tuesday, but of course I found this article online and now I don’t know if I WANT to test/know early!  This excerpt is what worries me:

The down side is the expense of repetetive testing and the anxiety that it can cause. If you test for pregnancy before a missed period, you will pick up chemical pregnancies. This occurs when the sperm does meet the egg and pregnancy is established, but it is not a good pregnancy (most often a chromosomal problem in the embryo) and is lost very early on. Without early testing this cycle may be normal, slightly delayed, or heavier. Up to 50% of pregnancies diagnosed before the missed period end in miscarraige.

Now there is a side of me that is like, WTF!! Who wrote that?  Where is the study that shows those numbers?  Is that a doctor’s point of view?  “Up to” 50%, does that mean 47% or 5%?  This is from the internet, where anyone can write anything, but what if it’s true?  I don’t want to detect a chemical pregnancy and be even more devastated, BLAH!

I’m keeping my head positive – PUPO I am – but the rational side of me keeps wavering back and forth wildly.  One second I’m absolutely certain that I’m pregnant, and the next I’m absolutely certain that I am not.  I can say that I do feel different this time than the last times at home, but this really could be simply because I know that it was DONE differently so I’m psyching myself out differently.

Being a psychology student is so difficult – you can recognize your irrational thoughts and understand they are irrational, but can’t stop them anyway!

So – I’ve changed my background on my work computer to be a slideshow of photos that I’ve found across the net of sleeping babes.  When I do have this baby, he/she is going to have a MILLION PHOTOS taken of him/her – just like these!

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The Deed is done! January 26, 2011

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OMG I made it through! Swimmers are swimming and I”m set to go into the revised time for our Meeting in about 30 minutes. Who thinks I’ll actually be able to pay attention?

Countdown till testing:
14 days



 

Update on my Dilemma January 25, 2011

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I’m going to go. I’ve asked one of my really good friends to come with me for moral support (BTW, doesn’t matter how good of a friend you are with someone, that is an AWKWARD conversation :)).

I have to call at 10 AM and the appointment is 10:40 AM. I’m so nervous! I’m the type that’s nervous about anything going on in that area, so this is going to be interesting. Lori is sad that she can’t come, but says that it’s just our luck that it will work the time she isn’t there – so sounds like a good plan to me!

Isa, I’d do it in the hospital with no qualms, but this one is doctor assisted so I have to go to the office. Probably TMI, but I’m ready to jump her bones in the hospital bed already 🙂

 

Dilemma *update*

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OK – I got my smiley today. The problem with that is Lori is still in the hospital – the problem with that is I don’t want to go alone. I don’t want to go alone because I’m terrified, and I don’t want to go alone because I want Lori to be there with me! I don’t want to NOT go because I DO NOT want to wait a whole other month to do this!

ugh!

*update* For the record, Lori wants me to go…

 

Update January 24, 2011

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Lori is doing much better – she has a staph infection (yay) and is getting treatment for that and nerve damage pain in her back caused by the blood clots. Sounds like so far we have no new major hurdles and will be able to get home as soon as the medicine for the staph infection gets to doing it’s job!

TTC – CD 11 – no smiley

 

CD12 December 29, 2010

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and I POAS today for the first time and did not get a smiley. I REALLY NEED to get the smiley tomorrow or Friday so that we can do our insemination before we leave for Florida!

Speaking of Florida, that is right around the corner and I have SO MUCH stuff to do!

  • Clean the house (the after the holiday disaster)
  • Confirm the dog sitter
  • Buy extended feeders for the Fish
  • Pack for a 3 day work conference and 4 day vacation
  • Pack for Lori – because I’m SO the packer in our little family
  • Set all of my out of office stuff for work
  • INSEMINATION!! (fingers crossed…)

The holidays were great. I really enjoyed having my mom here to visit for them, but of course hated to see her go.

 

Back to the waiting game…. December 9, 2010

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I’m beginning to realize that I’m completely addicted to checking the blogs that I follow.  At least 10 times a day at work I’m clicking on my little shortcut to Google Reader HOPING AND HOPING that someone has updated something!  This is especially true when nothing exciting is going on over in my world.  Right now it’s back to the waiting game.  I’m currently waiting for:

  • bloodwork to come back from the Dr.’s visit.  We need to find out if I am or the donor is CMV positive.  I had no idea what this was or why it mattered, but apparently this is a virus that, if contracted during pregnancy, can cause birth defects.  90% of people have had it and it doesn’t matter if your donor has because you have the antibodies.  However, if you are one of the 10% who is negative, then you HAVE to have a donor that is negative.
  • to purchase the specimen – for the reason stated above
  • for AF to arrive so I can notify the doctor
  • to POAS for a smiley so I can notify the doctor
  • to find out if the timing is going to be right to do it at the end of the month or if we are going to have to wait because of the Florida trip
  • did I mention notify the doctor?

So, at the moment, I’m (not so) patiently waiting for you all to update your blogs so I will have some reading to pass the time! 🙂

 

Seriously?!?!?!? December 7, 2010

Filed under: Doctor — 2Lesbians&Baby @ 3:52 pm
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It was like night and day! (the Seriously in the title was just a bit of added shock value 🙂 ).  As a matter of fact, the only thing that I can use that phrase for is “Seriously, that’s all there is to it????”.

Lori and I walked into the office to a very warm feeling.  The waiting room was beautiful and Georgia on My Mind was playing in the background (MY KINDA MUSIC).  The receptionist/nurses were so sweet and inviting. They brought me back to sit in the “flower chairs” to wait for the doc (named the flower chairs because they have the most hideous flower pattern on them that I have ever seen!).  After waiting only a few the doctor comes out.  She’s really tall, fairly skinny, and laughs at the most random times.  I LOVE her.

She didn’t jump straight to medicine/testing/ultrasound every week.  Said with my age and history, it’s best just to go natural cycle to start.  Sounds like just what I wanted at the last visit! 

So the plan is to do my OPK- call her when i get a positive and they will schedule me for IUI the next day!  Hopefully the first one will be the end of this month (timing willing).  I’d like for the first week of my 2ww to be spent in FL!

 

 
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