She backed out.
After I bought the sperm.
Now I’m out $500 and I think I’m completely broken – I thought that I was before, but I wasn’t. Now that I know this feeling, I know what broken is.
The End…
Still Anxious… October 14, 2013
Still can’t shake this feeling that this is not going to work – The truth is I don’t think I’ll shake it until it actually happens. I’ve gotten my hopes up so many times and been crushed that I think I’m just still in disbelief that we may actually become parents. I don’t think I’m going to believe it until there’s actually a baby in my arms.
*Sigh*
Anxiety! October 11, 2013
All of a sudden today I have a massive amount of anxiety that I can’t seem to get under control…I feel like this option is simply too easy and that something terrible is going to go wrong and derail the entire thing.
Ugh – wish I could shut my head up!
Our chart is not perfect for this month, but I’m hoping that everything goes well for next month and we are a one hit wonder for this pregnancy to happen. But I can’t shake this feeling that the world is about to crash around me…
