Hello Blogland – Nice to see you again.
To all of you who were wondering, I’m not lost in the wilderness anywhere or doing some cool backpacking trip through the end of the world where there’s no internet. I didn’t join a convent or even a cult and I wasn’t held hostage at any point over the course of the last few months. The sad but simple truth is that I’ve simply been lazy and had no crazy inspiration to write about that I felt would be worth reading, so I’ve been lurking quietly around your blogs and enjoying your lives (not in a weird, stalker, creepy kind of way…I promise.)
I must take a moment to congratulate all of the wins – the BFPs and births that I have not mentioned (looks like we are having a blog baby boom around here). I also want to acknowledge those who are still searching for our little bundle of joy – keep the faith, it can happen and I know that for a fact.
Hm Amanda, how do you know that? Are YOU pregnant?
Sadly, no…I’m still in the same boat I was the last time I wrote here.
However the next best thing has happened. My long time friend and, for all practical purposes my sister, found out recently that she is expecting her first. After YEARS AND YEARS of trying, being told she would never get pregnant naturally, going through fertility doctors, failed adoption attempts, and lots and lots of conversations about our journeys together, she has been blessed with a little, UNPLANNED, NOT TRACKED, NATURALLY OCCURRING pregnancy. I could not be happier for her. Ever since I can remember knowing her she has ALWAYS wanted to be a mommy. For a while it was looking rough, but she has definitely reiterated the fact that these things come when it’s time for them to come and everything happens for a reason.
So just a quick note to my (not blood related) sister, my dearest friend in the entire world. I’m so happy for you. I’m so excited to be a part of your journey. I’m so excited to be a part of this little one’s life. I wish I could be closer so that I could be more involved, but please know that I think about you often and it always, ALWAYS brings a smile to my face.
As far as my journey is concerned, it’s still on the back burner. At some point in the near future I will be making some decisions. I’m wondering if we should make one last Hail Mary attempt at home – Balls to the wall, if you will, and see how it turns out. I’ve been thinking seriously about getting over to the foster family seminar and getting some real information instead of what I’ve read along the way. We’ll see.
I’m also making a pledge – A pledge to write here more. I need to do it as it’s extremely therapeutic for me to write these things down.