The road less traveled…

My partner and I were attempting to become pregnant. For many reasons – including my sanity – we have put that on the back burner for now and are just working on walking down the road less traveled. We've been through Katrina – moved to Colorado – and our next adventure is headed to California.

Today… September 6, 2011

Filed under: Hurt,TTC — 2Lesbians&Baby @ 10:24 am

Today hurts…

Today feels empty…

Today feels sad…

Today feels nauseating and never ending…

Today I feel my chest tightening and tears in the corners of my eyes at random times…

This month makes one year since we started inseminating.  September 14th was my first ever smiley and September 15th was our first at home insemination.

And here we are with nothing…

We went to the state fair this weekend.  It was definitely pregnant lady/infant weekend.  So many little ones running around with absolute awe in their faces.  They were all so adorable.

When I first started this blog I was so excited.  It seems as though each post was filled with optimism.  Lately I’ve been feeling nothing but sadness and each post is whiny and bitter.  I know that there are tons of others out there that are going through worse than me, but right now I’m being selfish and I don’t care.

Maybe the sun will come out tomorrow?


One Response to “Today…”

  1. if only others’ pain made our hurt less, eh?

    you are perfectly entitled to feel sad. i’m sorry that you do, though.

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