Our IUI will be tomorrow morning at 10am. I didn’t get a surge yesterday, so I had to get shot in the tummy last night with Ovidrel. This should have me ovulate 36 hours later for a perfectly timed IUI tomorrow morning.
We’ve decided that we’re going to take a break after this one. I’m having a hard time continuing to ride this emotional roller coaster and feel like I need to take some time to focus on Shayne and I – our relationship, our finances, dealing with the transition, etc.
I’m beginning to get the feeling that I’m not going to get pregnant – or at least that it’s going to end up being way more difficult than I ever expected it to be. I had a dream last night that we had been trying for 5 years and finally saved up enough to do IVF and it failed. I know that we have only done doctor assisted IUI’s 2 times, but we did 3 at home. Maybe I’m just impatient – I know there are tons of you that have tried for much longer and I shouldn’t feel this way…but I do.
I’ve also decided this time that instead of being PUPO, I’m going to be NPUPO (Not Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise). I figure if it’s been the opposite of what I”m assuming every time, if I assume that I’m not pregnant maybe it will be the opposite again??
OOO- also – Shayne started a blog. it’s a bit unformatted, but I’m going to help him work on that this weekend. Go and Follow!!
I’ll be crossing my fingers for your IUI. I’m sorry this has been so hard on you 😦 I hate the hurt that infertility causes.
I will check out Shayne’s blog!
Good luck tomorrow!