IUI Scheduled

Our IUI will be tomorrow morning at 10am.  I didn’t get a surge yesterday, so I had to get shot in the tummy last night with Ovidrel.  This should have me ovulate 36 hours later for a perfectly timed IUI tomorrow morning.

We’ve decided that we’re going to take a break after this one.  I’m having a hard time continuing to ride this emotional roller coaster and feel like I need to take some time to focus on Shayne and I – our relationship, our finances, dealing with the transition, etc.

I’m beginning to get the feeling that I’m not going to get pregnant – or at least that it’s going to end up being way more difficult than I ever expected it to be. I had a dream last night that we had been trying for 5 years and finally saved up enough to do IVF and it failed.  I know that we have only done doctor assisted IUI’s 2 times, but we did 3 at home.  Maybe I’m just impatient – I know there are tons of you that have tried for much longer and I shouldn’t feel this way…but I do.

I’ve also decided this time that instead of being PUPO, I’m going to be NPUPO (Not Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise).  I figure if it’s been the opposite of what I”m assuming every time, if I assume that I’m not pregnant maybe it will be the opposite again??

OOO- also – Shayne started a blog.  it’s a bit unformatted, but I’m going to help him work on that this weekend.  Go and Follow!!