The road less traveled…

My partner and I were attempting to become pregnant. For many reasons – including my sanity – we have put that on the back burner for now and are just working on walking down the road less traveled. We've been through Katrina – moved to Colorado – and our next adventure is headed to California.

*sigh* May 17, 2011

Filed under: TTC — 2Lesbians&Baby @ 11:55 am

That was a huge amount of word vomit yesterday – thanks for listening.

We have looked into support groups for individuals with transitioning partners- Shayne actually found them for me after I spoke with him about how I was feeling.  It’s just hard to swallow that the one thing that is making him feel liberated and happy is the one thing that is making me feel left out and sad.    I’m sacred of losing the person that I fell in love with.  He keeps telling me that it’s the same person, just the outside is changing, but that doesn’t seem to be the case.  When you introduce hormones into a situation, it changes the way you act, feel, react, speak, walk, everything….

I stress about money all the time – it seems that about every 6 months or so I start getting panicky about how we are going to do it, but we always pull through.  The past 2 years I’ve made more money than I ever have – and it seems that I’m in more debt than I ever have been also. I need to go talk to someone about consolidating our debt and getting it all in one payment – just not sure my credit is good enough for that considering all the credit card shit that my aunt got me into.

Anyway – thanks for your words and for listening – I’ll get through it….just got a little overwhelmed yesterday.

 

3 Responses to “*sigh*”

  1. Hope Says:

    You are so much stronger than I am. I think support group or counseling sounds like a great idea.

  2. There is so much going on here, so try to be patient with yourself and with Shayne. One of my best friends is going through a transition right now and for the first time, his partner is with a man – of course it’s going to take time to get used to it.

    Shayne is right, it is just the outside, and though the hormones may change some things, he still has the same heart – the same heart you fell in love with.

    Take your time and learn about each other again. Counselling sounds like an amazingly good idea. Good luck.

  3. Heidi Says:

    I have been pretty checked out for a while and stopped to catch up. You have so many plates in the air, I don’t know how you are keeping them all up there. I hope you can find peace with everything going on right now and find some help to get through it all. It is a lot to deal with on your own. I consolidated debt through consumer credit counsiling years ago and it was a life saver.


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