That was a huge amount of word vomit yesterday – thanks for listening.
We have looked into support groups for individuals with transitioning partners- Shayne actually found them for me after I spoke with him about how I was feeling. It’s just hard to swallow that the one thing that is making him feel liberated and happy is the one thing that is making me feel left out and sad. I’m sacred of losing the person that I fell in love with. He keeps telling me that it’s the same person, just the outside is changing, but that doesn’t seem to be the case. When you introduce hormones into a situation, it changes the way you act, feel, react, speak, walk, everything….
I stress about money all the time – it seems that about every 6 months or so I start getting panicky about how we are going to do it, but we always pull through. The past 2 years I’ve made more money than I ever have – and it seems that I’m in more debt than I ever have been also. I need to go talk to someone about consolidating our debt and getting it all in one payment – just not sure my credit is good enough for that considering all the credit card shit that my aunt got me into.
Anyway – thanks for your words and for listening – I’ll get through it….just got a little overwhelmed yesterday.