I really do. I hate it because it’s a stupid obsession that I cannot get rid of. I hate it because I try to find charts like mine and it’s showing a 5% chance that I’m pregnant and a 95% chance that this was an ovulatory cycle. I hate it because I’m trying not to believe it, but if that is the case then what’s the point of taking my damned temperature every morning.
I also hate that I don’t feel any symptoms – nothing – and I really don’t think that I’m pregnant. Which means we spent 1K on sperm for nothing and I’m going to end up having to go to a doctor and I can’t really afford the sperm AND all the crap the doctor wants to do. I hate that I was on Facebook yesterday and EVERYONE is pregnant. My old high school friends are all pregnant. I watched a sideshow of a friends labor and delivery and cried all the way through it.
I hate it because I feel extremely defeated right now and FF is supposed to comfort me….