We did our inseminations this weekend. I got my smiley on Saturday and inseminated Saturday Evening, Sunday Morning, and Sunday night. I’m officially on my 2ww…hopefully this one doesn’t drive me as bananas as the last one did. According to FF we hit the timing pretty perfect and I’m now at 4DPO. I checked this morning for “charts like mine” on FF, and they are all ovulatory (that means no pregnancy) so I’m a little tense about that. I also have dashed crosshairs and that means that fertility signs are conflicting……I don’t know…I’m probably over-analyzing everything as usual.
I just really really want to be pregnant…more than anything in the world. I’ve been finding myself crying for no reason at all lately – What if I’m just not meant to be pregnant? (yes, I know it’s only try #3 and there are others who have been trying for WAY longer) but I’m terrified that maybe somewhere down deep in my psyche I’m sub-consciously telling my body that I don’t want to be pregnant and it’s actually listening.
I did start to crochet – was intended to keep my mind OFF the baby situation – however I find that I’m currently crocheting a BABY BLANKET!! UGH!! So much for that distraction!
Anyway – here we are at 4DPO – 4 down and 11 days to go (I REFUSE to test early!!)